Its a new day...

I find myself in the same position every night (well almost every night). I will have eaten healthy all day then after dinner I crave either ice cream or peanut butter! So i will treat myself telling myself "oh its no big deal, you worked out today." Well it is a big deal because I dont stop there. Once I eat one thing bad I use that as justification to consume all the other junk that I deprive myself of thinking that I already screwed up my healthy eating for the day so I might as well go all out and start fresh tomorrow. Unfortunately this all adds up after awhile. I had a successful weight loss experience- went from 170 lbs down to 125. Took me 2 years to take it off and ive maintained for about 2 years now. But... the past year I have been struggling with bulimia tendencies. Ill eat mass amounts of junk then proceed to make myself sick thinking i can negate the calories i consumed by eliminating them from my body. I dont want to do this anymore.. Im turning to blogging to see if it can help me. I am now 135 lbs and would like to loose (healthily) the 10 lbs that Ive gained back and im hoping that keeping this blog and track of my foods and exercise can help me and help me maintain once my goals are reached. Tomorrow is a new day and a day that I AM going to change because I will not accept anything less and this constant self destruction I impose on myself is not an option anymore! Ill begin tracking foods and emotions tomorrow. I am sooo ready to begin this journey, I am not weak and can over come this hurdle!